Scary as hell.... but I made it through

And boy do I ever feel better now. First off I'll explain. Tuesday we had our first court date to decide the temporary orders of his requests in our divorce. He asked that he get sole custody, the use of the marital home (have me move out) and spousal support along with child support. Yea he got none of that.

We never even saw the judge. Our lawyers talked went to the judge he said alright and everything was set. We signed up for mediation and a parenting class that we have to take. Than it was time to go. No big deal all said and done. Hour and a half and we were done. Now we have to get a joint checking account (we've had our money split for years too many fights). Plus add in that we only get 50 dollars a week spending money. I really hope this ends soon.

But being that I've never been through this before I was still scared nervous and just in general freaked out. I had a few friends that wanted to go to court with me...I wouldn't let them. I married him on my own I can split from him on my own. (he had his dad with him) Not to say I didn't almost burst into tears numerous times during that morning. I had my phone and thank God I had bars!! I had some conversations with friends as well as this video http://ow.ly/k5Tn5 to keep me calm. It wasn't so much the hedgehog...even though he's adorable...it was the person behind the hedgehog. He's good for keeping me calm and thinking clear.

My family has also been very supportive. I love that they aren't into bashing on Jon either. They don't like how he filed wish he would of done it the cheaper route. But they know his parents are behind his decisions now.

As for my in-laws. I'm so glad my kids are seeing through them. They've been taking the kids out and buying them stuff...My daughter asked "so they think they can buy me"...she just rolled her eyes and said..."I'll use them for it but it doesn't change that they have not been there up until now." I love that she sees that. I do tell her that they love her which I don't doubt they do love them...but they prefer to love with money.

Now to get along living in the same house. I'm no longer going to my parents every night. I thought that it could be perceived that I was leaving my kids 6 nights a week. Plus the order says we must live together. So we better do it. This is going to be rough but as long as both of us are reasonable and work towards getting this done quickly it shouldn't be all that painful...yea right don't pop my delusional bubble people!! I like living in here some days!!!