And well let's just say it didn't go great!!! Let me start with the good stuff..
They had a demo last night it was on hypnotism. That was the coolest part of the evening for me. The hypnotist was a great guy. He made it not scary at all. You could tell he loved talking about hypnotism and loved showing people how to do it. It was a great session and so much fun to participate and they interaction between him and his wife was so cute!!! He performed group hypnosis and I went under very quick and pretty deep. I was a little shocked about how deep but everyone agreed they knew I'd go under. Apparently I'm easily influenced and everyone knows it!!! LOL
After the demo it was time for the play party. For those of you who don't know what a play party is..well it's at a dungeon there's your first clue... so anything kinky (except penetration) is going on all around you while in the dungeon. It was a relatively quiet party. Not too many people but there were some friends there as well as new people. Hubby opened up and actually talked to people that I wasn't interacting with (yes that's a huge deal) so I thought it was going to be a great night...I asked him while the dungeon was empty if he wanted to flog me...he turned me down...no big deal I let it go. We go and sit in the social area (couches chairs talking eating whatnot) and someone new shows interest in my shoes and compliments me in wearing 5 inch heels. Than here comes possessive hubby. He all of a sudden after 18 years of never touching my feet wants to rub my feet. We sit and chat for just a bit. I notice a friend has gone to play and I tell him I want to go watch. I go to watch and start a very innocent conversation with the one that liked my shoes. Hubby comes in and says he wants to give me to someone to play with but that he's too hungry he wants to leave. Now mind you we've been to a few parties like this..these people we know some we even talk to outside of kinky life. I ask him to wait til the scene is over he says OK. He can't seem to sit still and keeps complaining about being hungry. As soon as the scene ends we leave.
He wonders why I never get too excited to go to the dungeon with him. He keeps saying he'll play with me every time we go..than he backs out. I get performance issues and all...let's keep it in check though..he doesn't have to get naked. We're not allowed to fuck so if his ED kicks in who cares nobody will know!!! If it's performing a flogging in front of everyone OK...well if you won't do it at home and you won't do it here..when will I ever get it???
He lets others play with me at the dungeon... sometimes...and only when he can truly control the scene. I feel we should stop going...but he is upset when I go alone. So the answer....I have no clue...just working this out as best as I can. Venting here helps me think things through so I know how to approach him when he does want to talk about what happened last night...I'm just hoping we can work things out... I'm pent up and stressed out... when after a good night of play I should be relaxed and zen...
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