Well I did my first 5k of this running season (I don't run in the winter unless its on a treadmill). The race was oh so much fun. It's call the Color me Rad run...as your racing along you get colored cornstarch thrown at you. So you come out looking like an art project gone wrong. And let me tell you I looked a mess (I'll post a pic later). But the race was oh so very very worth it. I had fun and I cannot wait to do it again with my friends back home. While it was fun today my other friends are a bit more forward than the crowd I was with today. Well at least my crowd back home know and accept every part of me. Today I felt I had to be reserved...one lady had her nose so far up in the air towards me I could see her walnut sized brain. So to make sure I didn't make her un-comfy I made sure to dial it back a bit...which sucked for me but I'm considerate like that when it comes to other peoples comfort level.
If there's one thing in this world I cannot stand about people...its snootiness. Don't sit there and try to look down at me. You are no different than anybody else in this world. Add to it that she was rude and well I was over her quickly. I came a very long distance to hang out with a very good friend than you monopolize his time...overly flirt with him (that I'm in high school and can't control myself fake crap) and than judge me...what the fuck ever. Your damsel in distress, oh save me my life is so fucking horrible, I'm fat (BULLSHIT) Oh pay attention to me cause I'm insecure about being 1 a woman and 2 a sexual being is childish and belittles all women on one level or another. Your type of personality disgusts me and I hate that I had to spend my weekend with you.
Talk about putting a damper on my whole weekend...but I won't let her or anybody ruin it. I had a blast got some sushi (tried a couple new rolls) got the best ever Electric Blow fish (Long Island Ice Tea type drink). Hot tub time and a nice hotel...plus some good times with my girlfriend. Oh and bought new shoes...I oh so love getting new shoes!!! I loved the state very pretty..maybe next time I'll come down but hit the beaches. Bring the kids and have a good time again. All in all it was a good trip...but from here on out I'll stick to doing races with people who want me to be me. No more stragglers!!!
Now the long drive home....
Did I miss something while I was off in another room or making angels? WTH happened because I really wanted to spend time with you even though behaving was a must. I am sorry that you didn't have as much fun as you wanted too. I asked T what all the tension was about and she wouldn't answer me so you have to tell me because well.....it made me feel uncomfortable as well.
ReplyDeleteHere is something that I think you should digest considering I find your words offensive in this post.
1.) While you may not like her, that gives you no right to bash her. She is a person that has issues just like you. Exactly like you.....while you might find my words to sting.....her and you are no different when it comes to how you first viewed yourself.
2.) If there were issues you should have brought them up to me. I would have handled it.....either by telling you that you are being too hard or that you are right and then her and I would have had a conversation.
No one looked down on you, but what I can tell you is that what you put in is exactly what you got back in energy reflected. Heather, I am not exactly sure what you were expecting this weekend....but what I was expecting was not what I bargined for. You spent more time talking with your "other friends" instead of actually focusing on the people that were there in front of you. What if I had done that to you when you came to VA? How would you have felt?
See your wrong...my blog means I can bash whomever I want. Don't like it don't read it. It's not like she reads this blog. Instead of asking T what the tension was maybe you should of asked me. "A" looked me up and down in your kitchen than rolled her eyes at me. So yes someone was looking down on me the whole fucking time. If it made you so uncomfortable well than good you should of realized something was wrong. When you weren't around she would only speak to T and show her pictures of her kids. She kept me out of the conversations and would turn her back to me if I spoke to her so guess what I'll bash the fuck out of that bitch. How could I of told you she never left your side...I got all of what 5 minutes alone with you while running..and than you still weren't with me. She dominated all the conversations even turned up the music in the middle of me speaking. You didn't see it so why bring it up to you. I vented to my other friends because that's who I have in my life right now THEM.
ReplyDelete1. Why does that matter. Lots of women view themselves the exact same way..I still don't think of myself as better than anybody else in this world. Far different than her in that aspect so this point means nothing to me.
2. Once again..When did I have the opportunity? OH yeah by the way she's a snotty ass bitch...I mean come on she was always around and if you even showed a slight bit of attention to me...she pulled you back towards her.
Again..me speaking with my other friends was the clue I was trying to give you...I even told T that..that I was hoping you'd pull me aside to talk and than I was going to approach the subject with you. You didn't want to hear it is my feeling...and I admit I could be wrong...but I know I'm not wrong when it comes down to her snobby ass behavior and she's damn lucky I didn't call her out on it!!!
You are right....this is your blog and you can bash who you like on here....and no, I don't have to read it. As for your tell tell signs of "talking to your other friends" why don't you just keep on talking to them. Good day.
ReplyDeleteI will at least they know when something is up with me. I don't even have to say 2 words and it use to be that way with you. Not sure what happened and why your so defensive over her. I wish you would actually talk with me and not through here... but I understand how busy you are...wonder if she will once you can't break at her every beck and call...love to you always.. you have been a huge part of my life.. I hope it doesn't end over me not liking her..but if it does I wish you the best.
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